Not Sure How To Title This Post...

This morning at 7am, Jane had a little bit of bleeding. We rushed to the ER to get her checked out. Actually we went to her OB/GYN's office first, but they've been incompetent through this whole thing with providing here wrong information, on-call doctor's not calling back when she's phoned with concerns, scheduling blood test appointments at times when doctor's or even qualified/experienced nurses/phlebotomists aren't around, scheduling ultrasound appointments without sending the paperwork through to the proper specialist, not communicating results from her previous ultrasound appointment which were apparently not good, general lack of communication and general apathy. Anyway we called them for advice this morning, waited for about an hour and a half, then called back to see what was going on, waited again for about an hour, finally getting a call back to come in for a blood test. Then once we were there, waiting for someone to be available to draw some blood for another hour, getting told over the phone that taking a test today would not yield results for another day.... Get the point?!

We finally just went to the emergency room to have it taken care of. Anyway, the sad news is that the ER doctors confirmed what we already suspected. Jane suffered a miscarriage today after approx. 8 weeks (almost 9) of pregnancy. Jane, obviously was upset and it hit Hylah a little hard since we were all excited about the pregnancy and the previous ultrasounds and blood tests were showing normal hormone levels and fetal development. My main concern was that Hylah and Jane were OK and although I was disappointed by the results today, I just wanted to make sure that they were taken care of.

The good thing, I suppose, is that there never was any heartbeat that could be detected. So, I kept telling Jane and Hylah that this one wasn't meant to happen. That her body knew that it wasn't right. That we would try again as soon as we were all ready to move forward. I don't know, this is all still a little raw so I'm just typing my thoughts as they come to me, but I just wanted to put it out there to get things off of my chest.

We just got home a few moments ago and Jane, after a long hard day in the ER is sleeping and Hylah is over at the neighbor's house playing with the boys next door. I just bought Jane some flowers so hopefully that will lift her spirits a little when they arrive tomorrow.

All for now.